5.27.2010

a simple confession...

"Each morning when i open my eyes I say to myself:
I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today.
I can choose which it shall be.
Yesterday is dead,
tomorrow hasn't arrived yet.
I have just one day,
today,
and I'm going to be happy in it."
-- groucho marx

This is what i had to remind myself as i made the transition from the US to Italy. the confession is this. the move was never easy...easy to make, physically or emotionally. i've might have made it out to be a seamless, effortless move with little or no hiccups. there's been obstacles both big and little that had made me regret the decision to move abroad. And especially living in this particular part of italy. when you imagine gentle weather and sunflowers swaying in the wind, that you're shocked to discover many days of bad weather and serious issues with the region's infrastructure. real things that wake you up from the italian dream. 

in the begining, living abroad had taught me that i was much more attached to the american lifestyle that i ever imagined. never thought of myself overindulged or spoiled but i missed the little things that made life very easy. for example, closets and electrical outlets. 

sounds silly, but you never know how attached one can be to this particular use of space and convenience so greatly appreciated in the states. getting used to the idiosyncracies of a new place is daunting...there were a lot of tears, sweat and threatening to pack up and go home. there were other things that pushed me to my limit, like living in a home with no insulation in the cold winter months, having to deal with a gas company that continuously tells you they are going to fill your nearly empty gas tank "domani" {tomorrow}, mold growing on your walls, a damp basement, crazy driving and finally, stories of doom and gloom as well as the anxieties of the other families around base which if you listen to them enough can make you crazy. you sound surprised...don't be. Remember, i blog about what makes me happy and complaining about closets or electrical outlets is just plain STUPID!

all those problems have worked their way out. i'm not living in a dump with moldy walls. the place is fantastic but it took an open mind, a lot of {house}work and patience to work all these things out. I just decided one day...when i was just too exhausted to think, complain or cry... to sit back...to take the bulls by the horn and create peace & harmony out of chaos. 

here's an example of my to do lists...

1.  open french doors to air the house out and let the gentle breezes in
2. hang laundry out on my balcony while gazing at the sea
3. clean up after breakfast while listening to the birds outside our window
4. empty the dehumidifier's water pail before clearing out space in basement for a new play space & workspace for me & the kids to play and create.
5. have mozzerella di bufala for breakfast, lunch, dinner & snacks
{a new obsession and if you've ever had it you'd understand!}
6.  wrap up the day with glass of my new favorite bianco on the terrace.

I hope that when i leave italy that i will miss it, as i've missed all my other duty stations.

5 comments:

  1. OMGosh, SO weird. I just posted a to do list on my blog without even looking at yours! Ha! We must be on the same wavelength. But YOURS is MUCH more fabulous than mine! :)

    Too funny!

    I wish I could come visit you in Italy!!

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  2. oh, i imagine you will miss it...each appreciated for the little things they bring...

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  3. Love it! You're only human to admit that sometimes life isn't perfect! Shoot...I'd miss closets & electrical outlets...esp. the former since I wouldn't have anywhere to hide our junk!!! Yet still, you create this fabulous to do list and that will DEFINITELY be a great reminder the next time you PCS.

    Ironically, the Hubs & I have been talking about how WE CHOOSE to live and we can choose whether or not we will be happy (in most cases).

    *hugs* Now go enjoy that mozzerella di bufala for me...caprese?

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  4. Oh my, I DO hear you, sista! I have had so many similar feelings. I love the quote, and I appreciate your list.

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Thank you.